Left in the cold

Today I cried. I posted a link to my latest article on Boychat.org and - as usual - most responses were very negative. And a negative response is one thing but replies full of hate is something else. And that is now for years the norm on so called pedophile forums. A discussion based on arguments is almost impossible on those forums. There are people that want to get away from the negative stigma by scapegoating the persons that want to change the age of consent laws. The good and the bad. I am as you might know in favor of changing those laws. Meaning I only think about my own lust feelings and does not care for the children. That's what I'm told every time. And society is so fucked up because of what NAMBLA or the Martijn Association advocated. As if more then one percent of Dutch citizens ever had heard of Martijn at the time the panic about the Dutroux child murders case broke loose in 1996. Years ago on the forum Boylovers.net I got so called 'personal messages' from people agreeing with my posts. They did not want to contribute on the board itself because of all the hate texts that would come over them. For years now these forums are like society: the opinion - based on logics and facts - is being attacked and real discussions are more and more disappearing. The forums are less populated then they used to be. Also - of course - due to the still growing repression in the western world concerning pedophilia and child sexuality.

Roderik Muit - not responding full of hate but as always very negative to my posts - replied with: '[Y]ou don't really care about making a change for pedophiles in this society. You care more about being "right", from a safe distance without any responsibilities. That, or you're just incapable of connecting to others because having to listen to their wider version of the truth, is too confusing for you.' And he also said I was blind. How blind can he be, thinking I don't really care about making a change for pedophiles in this society? And his statement about 'a wider version of the truth' is one of many vague texts he always comes up with. What does he actually wants to change?; I really do not know. I wonder if he knows himself.

I care about the millions of people locked away in prison cells, about the growing number of child sex offenders, about the hatred against all pedophiles; I care about people forced to treatment, sometimes chemically castrated. And why is all this happening? Because too little people stand up against it.

I felt very sad after reading the comments. I cried. One of our cats - Bruce - is missing for a week now. I feel sad about that too but I did not cry because of it. Or did I, was it a combination sadness? Not gonna post the url to this article on Boychat. It feels: we, the truth seekers, are left in the cold.